5:48 p.m. - 2006-02-17
sighhhhh.
... so, today was another eventful day.
and another day that i didnt wanna live through.
i was like, wanting to die every single minute.
not really die; more like disappear since i seem so insignificant to EVERYBODY.
i am, as everybody says, bitchy..
and i have no idea why.
ugh.
*stabs self*
i wish!
okay, that was before cF
during CF, nelson lead worship.
he sang all slow songs and i cried thru all of them.
like, releasing the worry.
uhuh.
YEAH RIGHT.
but at least i felt like God was there.
GAAAAHHH.
what is wrong with me nw!
i used to be able to talk to Him.
my Best Friend, Saviour and God in one.
a love so strong only He could give
the comforting hand only He could hold out
the faith so loyal only He could believe..
what happened to all that?
The late nights,
the quiet time,
the nightly sessions..
i lost my faith.
i lost my touch
i lost everything...
and i have to gain it all back!
....
HAH.
