4:17 p.m. - 2006-02-15
PFFFFFFFT!
mmmmmm.. so today was okay lah. i was extra tired from yesterday. im not even going to bother to list it, lets just say i had to run from here to there to here and then do high jump, runinthe rain, sukan tara then tuition in taman sri hartamas which is like 2 km away. which i had to walk to; in the RAIN. hmmm..... wtf? lol.
er anyway today was okay lah. i got a few flowers yest, then a bouqet delivery to my house. wtv lah. annonymous delivery -.-.
i am in NO mood. i am so pissed off at melvin, and i just wanna... release my anger and confusion! firstly, A finally asked me to be his valentine but lke, its so annoying cos i think he used me as a last resort or something. gah!
and THENNNN.. he didnt do anything even tho im his '' valntine '' and like, melvin didnt do anything either even tho im his gf? WHY? because he said he didnt hv any money. and he even said wht did my other v give me anyway?.
well here's why im so angry.
its all bout YOU MELVIN. im not even going to erase ur name. GRRRRR.
BASTARD. the whole bloody month hes been ignoring me, treating me like shit yet making me fall for him more and more. and all i did was love him and care. and yeah, i guess he cared. in waht way? feeling bad cos i felt sad about him.
u call that caring? i call that TRYING TO SAVE YOUR REP!
and u dont wanna talk to me? for ONE YEAR? WHY?! cos u dont wanna break up with me to save your sorry butt reputation!
IF YOU WERE JEREMY, YOU'D BE WHACKED AND SLAPPED TILL YOU WOULD WNT TO BREAK UP WITH ME!!!!!!!!!
and jeremy's a diff case, he likes me to whack him. and plus hes a useless penolong so he friggin desrves it.
and when i call u? what do u do? IGNORE ME. when my friends shout at you to talk to me? what do you do? RUN AWAY MUTTERING ABOUT SEJARAH.
and sejarah? YOU DONT EVEN HAVE THE BLOODY SUBJECT IN YOUR TIME TABLE TODAY YOU IDIOT.
IF I DIDNT THINK ITS SUCH A BAD THING, I WOULD HATE YOU!!
as it is, im so angry at you i punched out my pillow pretnding it was YOU!!!
i wrote a letter to you, yes a LETTER.
and you know what else you did?
YOU MADE ME FALL FOR YOU.
YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU.
YOU MADE ME THINK YOU WERE MY LIFE.
AND I WAS SOOOO WRONG.
you suck. you seriously do. i still love you, but im not going to bother. you can go running off to your next target. you can STOP HURTING ME.
and i know you'll be happy. guess what?
so will I.
im so angry at you, but i dont know how to tell you.
you're just too friggin idiotic to even have the guts to talk to me.
NOT ONLY THAT, you lied.
AAAAAAAGHHHH! *strangles invisible melvin*
okay. thats enough. if youve got a problem with my bitching then just go away lah.
will not swear*crosses fingers*
now lets see fr the lyrics...
angry sounding song, okay??
you took my heart
you treated it gently
but then you tore it apart
you shattered me.
i loved you,
but what could i do?
it was your choice
it was your right
but a lie, a look
that was all
you disappeared from my heart
as quickly as you came.
i know i still love you,
it isnt easy to erase
but as usual,
you came on cupid's wings.
and then, flew away...
