5:50 p.m. - 2005-12-30
argh.
okay, so it looks like i'm really stupid. i fell for a guy, i hoped and i dreamed only to be disappointed. it's not so much the disappointment. it's the fact that i had hopes. i've never had hopes about a guy. i've never dreamed. i just played about for FUN. please don't tell me this is infatuation, and dont tell me its love. i dont know what it is.. i've never been so unsure of something.
so yeah, it's so annoying to find that you think you're fat, that you just cant hold a candle to the people around you. i know, god made us unique in our own ways. WHY THE HELL DO I FEEL LIKE THIS THEN?! . dont tell me its cos of a guy.. it's really pissing me off. i mean, honestly. i hate perasan freaks. i mean, i dont hate them. i just dont like them. why bother to be perasan?! arghh.
sorry for the ventings. blogging out my frustration is my ONLY way. arghh!! i .. might even be in love. just, the other person obviously doesnt want anything to do with me. nobody knows about this. NOBODY. so shut up about it.. ( i dont even know who's going to read this; but probably alot of people. since its always like that ) . no questions about this, please. i could honestly do without.
i just want to cry. cry into somebody's shoulders. PLEASE. *godhelpme* i dont wanna live. sigh..
and here's a song.. somebody.. should know whether its about themselves. sigh!
SO LITTLE TIME - arkana.
Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
It's an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on heat,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
It's sad but true,
I'd rather be with you
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
Before too long.
So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But I'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
Said I've been celibate for years,
Not out of choice there's no-one here,
See I can't get my end away,
Another ordinary day,
And I'd love to see a little more of you,
You're clothes would look better on my bedroom floor, bedroom floor.
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity
I know you're busy,
But we all need somebody - before too long
So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
It's in your eyes, in your eyes
So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
