1:41 a.m. - 2005-12-24
A portrait of christmas.
okay, so im back from the christmas production of bgc. the portrait! i was really jobless and watched it twice. my mom nearly didnt send me okay! hahaha. so lets see. it was a pretty good thing but the first night was better. sigh. the first half,i just ate thru it but i loved the carols! poor winston. he always has to try so hard to make the crowd go wild. :)
SIGH. why am i so unhappy about christmas. i keep on preaching to people yet i myself, am soooo unenthusiastic about everything. i feel empty, sooo empty. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! ish.
why why why am i like this.. i know the answer is jesus. but where is jesus? i know hes supposed to always be there. why isnt he always there?! argh . . troubled waters cease man . .please.. argh. anyway i had fun at the christmas production. went with ivy. but i got trans frm nasha. thank goddd! even though nasha got pissed at me fr ' abandoning them ' when THEY were the ones who ditched! :D:D:D. Since im going to erm.. be reading this some day. here's an exact description.. or wait u know what, nevermind. its not something i need to remember. just the magical moments during the second half. erm, yeah. =D
