3:48 p.m. - 2005-12-15
KGB CAMP!
Dearest.
i just got back from camp last night. i'm just so glad i went for it... god's just so... wonderful.okay, im going to blog a really long blog since ive got nothing better to do! and it IS my diary, u dont like it then please; feel free to leave.
we had a decathlon on the first day and i made the mistake of wearing my dior T-shirt (full of sequins!!) now why didnt i listen to nelson when i had the chance...bleurgh. arhhh.. =).. anyways.. yeah it was like damn alot of fun lar.. but i still wasnt feeling god and all; even though i was meeting all these super nice christian people that i really really appreciated since i was feeling really sucky.
the second day, we had sunday morning worship plus the lord's supper. then we had a preaching by francis ( which was really good btw! ) on god's economy. you can read about it in leviticus; there was this 3 year plan, 7 year plan and 50 year plan. it makes u really thankful for the kind of econ we have today okay? :) had 2 share my bible with nelson and tht was good thing cos like he explained all the things tht i didnt understand.*which was ALOT!! hahahaha.*
then we had k perspective and i'll be honest. i dont remember a thing!! but dont ask me why. i didnt fall asleep and i was listening my best. its like i just cant absorb too much at one time okay.. :) anyways then after a real stupid lunch; we had this showtime prep thingy.. we did a comedy on the parable of "the banquet".. u know, where the guy invites a bunch of people and thye all give stupid lame excuses. then he invites all the crippled people and all the poor tramp-ish ppl la. and its just basically an example of what jesus wnts to do to all of us; he wants ALL of us, no matter thin fat talll heavy short dirty smelly clean or wtv to eat with him..
so we had a parody. our excuses?
1) a girl saying she was "allergic to chicken" while she was telling the servant (who had to call everybody!) tht KFC's fried chicken was delicious. (okay, the girl who played that was.. me... roar. :D)
2) a really tough gangsterrrr who actually wanted to go for the dinner but couldnt cos his MOM slapped him and told him to eat dinner with her. :p . we had Amitha ( this real cool japanese *ithink* guy whose just so short and .. hairy :p ) to play the mom and nelson to play the gangster. he was real good at that!! :p. he even walked thru the audience shouting stuff like " i dont like ur face !" at random people. :p
3) PARIS HILTON!!
she couldnt go because she " just bought a car and she needed to check if there was an engine. " we got nicholas (yoong not ooi) to play this. its much funnier la cos a guy playing a girl is funnnyy.. :P
but, sadly even though i thought no 3 was the funniest during practice, they only laughed at no 1 and no 2. especially since nelson pulls of such a good gangster-cum-sissy :p.. (no offense okay! its just FUNNY ) haahaha. then we pullled this guy named soon seng frm the crowd as a joke when we played the "calling all poor,crippled people" part. cos soon seng's arm was broken. what better way to be crippled :). ahahaha
okok, then the next day.. we had.. *gasp gasp whoaa* amazing race 4 around penang. sigh, i was such a loser in this. well not at the begining but at the end yes. i PUKED!!!. and had to be carried by szethos bro.. wei shern! :p hes such a strong fella. ROAR. :p and it was really tiring okay, we had to take cabs and walk and run and take ferries plus motor bikes and CANOE and we got to take super fast jet ski rides!!!!!. and u know, we saw this accident where the father died whereas the little boy got a broken arm and leg. and my contact was irritating me.. ( my contact tore in my eye leaving a little bit and i was really hoping to cry! so i tried.. because usually i cry during worship but not this time. sa said tht i would get healed cos it was high praise that night. during morning devotion. ahah )
i mean i didnt actually see the accident but i saw the dead body on the ground >.<. . cos when wei shern and me got back, nelson was like "LETS GET OUT OF HERE LAH!!!" in his gangster voice. now that, was SCARY. =p
so we just ran on and on and on and wtv la. :p four teams got disqualified so we got no 15 out of 16. barharhar.. er anyway. we had to do stuff like eat 2 bowls of cendol, get a trishaw ride! (had 2 sit wid nelson), eat in a restaurant for 40 minutes, eat some really hard stupid biscuit, look for a date of death in a CHRISTIAN CEMETERY and so on. u get the pic?? soooo tiring! :p we even had an obstacle course in the playground. and we had to WALK ON A REFLEXOLOGY PATH!! well that wasnt so bad.. but u should've heard the guys :p. teehee!
(i might post more about the amazing race when i remember more later on. its just really an experience u want to remember so im going to write it all down here. :D)
u know its like sometimes u just get closer to people simply cos they're in your group. heehee. i miss all d ppl i met and had in my group la, eg wei shern, waiyi , nicholas , chew , ivy , amitha and daniel.. but i cant miss nelson cos hes still here. HAHAHAAH :D
okay anyway that night we had K-Authority which equals to HIGH PRAISE which equals to prophecies, praying and crying. i had four people pray for me and its like so amazing .. u know i kept on thinking " why cant i stop crying while everybody else is crying.. why is everybody looking at me.. because most people just got like 1 or 2 people to pray >.< "
and im gonna list like most of the things tht got said to me.. even though they are really kinda private * if u can, please dont read this * i just wanna remember this day forever ..
firstly, pastor edward(from penang) came to me.. i was already crying by then but it wasnt cos of god, it was me i think. and all i could stumble out were the words " i feel so alone " cos i thought i had to tell him our probs. but his reply was "i know, thats why i came here to pray for you". and that shocked me but i still had the nerve to ask "how did u knoww.....>.<" and by then i couldnt really talk cos i was so overcome by tears . then he just put his mouth to my ear and said quietly all the things god told him to say. i cant remember every single thing, just the ones that touched my heart..
so here goes..
" you feel alone but god says ' i never / have not stopped loving you. ' don't try so hard. sometimes you just have to rest at the feet of jesus.i will lead you " and there was probably alot more.. just hope i can remember later on but anyways that was pastor edward.. then the other lady who hugged me, i cant remember what she said and another one who also hugged me (cos i was crying like crazy)
she said " lord, remove the lie from her heart that she is inadequate enough for you as the lord says anybody can come to him " that really scared me. HOW DO THEY KNOW ALL THAT?!. god works wonders..
then aunt / pastor selina came. shes pastor edwards wife. so much power and praise packed into one small body! (shes like at my shoulders..)what she said touched my heart alot as well..
she said i had unforgiveness, she could predict all the things that happened in my family which was scary since we kept our mouths shut about the secrets.. anyway, she sensed everything.. and she also sensed that i had to forgive lots of people who have ignored me.. and all that. by then i was sobbing like MAD.. and she said that God's love was embracing me,tht the crying was his love touching me... =)...
then after she stopped praying for me (which was really much longer than other people. shows how much i needed it!!)>.< i overheard her telling another lady to bring me 2 d side and hug me cos god said i needed re-assurance. then after all that, i went and sat next to szetho. i was still crying like mad. i couldnt stop.. he offered me tissue, so did khong su-anne. thennn i sat next to linyi and she hugged me >.< (thanks girl! :D) then she prayed for me (after that she said she didnt even realize she was praying for me, tht the words just came out..) then PIPI hugged me and prayed for me. sigh. god was showing me i had friends, i guess. i was still crying okay. everytime i tried to sing the worship songs, tears just started to build up.. THANK and PRAISE GOD!
after all that, when we broke up, kim hugged me and told me to take six deep breaths.. and everybody was putting their hands on me, trying to comfort me. even nelson and elizabeth!then we went out and szetho asked me in such a cute voice .. " u want buscuit? u want milo ? are you sure? "
and it just made me cry and laugh at the same time.. :p. then i walked around with szetho, telling him alot of things and he was telling me too. around the beach. ( why isit that people think that just cos u walk / talk / sit with a guy its ROMANCE???? ) the same went for nelson. bahaahah
okay, end of the night i still cried. woke up, had morning devotion.. CRIED AGAIN!! had group session. CRIED MORE!! (i had a real bad sore throat... how was i suppoesd to know that the shop even SOLD MINERAL WATER???? roar.) francis prayed for me :). okay. then i just sat watching the waves and i cried again.. ahaha..we had free time! i played chor dai di wid linyi and this guy i met, lang. then shing and tyng joineddd... and kim ^^;. hahahaah.
then had beach olympics! that was fun, like a telematch thingy :p. but at first su-ann made us do this crazy thing called running right, but the SLOWEST and most CREATIVE run won. then after we killed our brains thinking up and running those runs, she said "okay guys, that wasnt a real game!!" .. she got dunked into the pool. =P
we had lots of games. cant really list cos im too lazy by now :p. but one of them, HAY COW WOLF. was really fun! nelson saved our team cos we had put chew and weishern as hay cow n wolf but we changed after nelson went " CHEW?@?!??!?! oh my god! " hahahaha. THEN only they said we had to carry them. and poor wei shern carried all of us and we finished first.. but thensuddenly they said we had to re-do it and u should've seen his face :D. so i got carried by chew AND wei shern cos i was hay. ( u know the game is like that story whr the man had to carry the fox, chicken and corn over the river, the hay couldnt be left with cow n the wolf coudlnt be left with cow ) hahaha. then after tht game, we had the sand bag throwing!! i had to sit on wei sherns shoulders [ that was scary. do u know how TALL wei shern is??!?! ]while the others made sand bags tht i threw in to the bucket that amitha was holding. TEEHEE.
anyways, two more games tht i really cant b bothered to list!! hahaha. we (my team, yefrem...)got 5th for beach olympics, 3rd for amazing race.. 3rd for showtime and 5th for decathlon.. hahahah! which made us 2nd overall :D( got this cool badge and er nice book which i gave to my mom cos i fell asleep while reading it :P) anyway back to my experience, we haddd... THE KGB NITE CHALLENGE on the last night. and again i got prayed for... but before that i gave a testimony and pi convinced me to go.. thanks pi! he said " if you cant even do this small step of fiath for god.. to OTHER CHRISTIANS, how are you going to do it for normal people??? " that convinced me. :p sigh* god works wonders! he answered everything i prayed for that night.. ( everybody brought a big supply of tissue. they were prepared this time ;P)
well anyway this time pastor selina's sister prayed for me. she said.. ( again, dont read this if u mind. i just wanna remember it! but its kinda private. )
" i will never leave you nor forsake you. i will never leave you nor forsake you. do not doubt me again.. God will lead the way. " she repeated the first sentence twice... i really needed to hear that! and that made me cry more and more. then she said " i sense a door.. a door that u will have to push and claim authority over if you want to recieve a breakthrough. and hopefully i did cause that night i pushed ilke i never pushed before. (emotionally!! please, dont think sick..) "
theeeeennn.. elizabeth came to me and prayed for me cos i was realy crying... again. then lang kept on smiling at me like to comfort me.. then i moved to him la cos i had no space and also cos they had a calling for people who wanted to have an anointing in worship. then lang put his arm around me cos i was soooooo sobbing by then. then pastor edward said " god will touch this place, dont worry he will.. " well he said alot more but i wasnt listening. i was kinda dizzy..
then i fell. as in, got touched by the holy spirit. or got slained, whichever. i would've hit the floor if lang hadnt caught me... * thank god! * then i just cried and cried and cried into his shoulders ... sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. then after all that me and lang just walked awayyy. he kpt on hugging me and i was feeling so goood. like, god and a guy in one day? ahaha. we sat on the beach ler. i was like leaning on him with his arm around me.. and ppl kept on disturbing.. hahahaha.. looking up at the stars, on the beach with the sound of waves, and a guys arms around me. it was like a dream come true.. like? i mean it WAS! heehee.
then nelson kept on disturbing me, like teasing me, so did linyi and ronald and wtv la. :D then i didnt sleep that night , just sat on the roof with erm... a bunch of ppl. my pants and feet were RED frm the roof :p.. then the next day we had final calling and testimonies and prize giving :D:D. and we had to pack up and clean out our rooms.. ahahahahah. heres the list of teams in order of their winning number.
1) nikolai
2) yefrem (booyah! my team! we lost like by 2 1/2 marks!!!! :/ )
3) duno :P
and so on.. but illl tell u all the names i remember. '
naum, mikhail, konstantin, ilya, uriel, naum, dima, semyon and bohdan. i know they sound really weird but those names mean something in hebrew or greek. i dont know what language :D
sighhh. then had lunch, and we were off. then i slept on the bus next to linyi, we stopped and i bought a sandwhich from dunkin doughnuts: D ( i gave the doughnut to linyi! so dont ask me anything stupid like " u went dunkin doughnuts and didnt buy a doughnut??? -_-'' ) ... :D.. and then on the way back we had all sorts of games and the punishment was toothpaste..ahahhaha... my face was covered in toothpaste... ahahaha!! :p
okay, then i reached home , came online, then i slept!!!!!. and here i am :D.
all in all,
KGB CAMP ROCKED!!!!!
